Every teenage girl wants the perfect life with lots of money, the perfect tan, and an amazing boyfriend. In my case, that was a far fetched fairytale I could only wish for. My parent’s are divorced, so my mom was left with three children to raise on just her own income. Needless to say, we didn’t live in a castle. Although, we weren’t financially stable, we were happy. Well they were happy. Around seventh grade, I began to suffer from depression quite often. I was questioning suicide and cutting myself almost every week. Just as life’s walls were closing in on me, we moved to Ojai, a small quiet town. Even there, I was alone and still battling my depression.
As the weeks went by, I adapted really well to my new school and had made plenty of friends. I was beginning to feel truly happy. I started contacting my father whom I haven’t seen in about eleven years. Things were going great and I felt like my life was becoming whole again.
Right as I was at my peak of happiness, I started having doubts. I doubted my happiness and slipped back into depression. It was hard to keep smiling everyday but I persisted. On a Tuesday afternoon, as I remember, I was in my eighth grade health class learning about hallucinogens. I looked up and locked eyes with the boy sitting across the room. I could tell he was as head over heels as I was when we both blushed and looked down. I waited until class was over ask for his phone number.
We talked for hours after school everyday for weeks and he eventually got up the nerve to ask me out to a movie. We’ve been together ever since and I couldn’t be happier. Looking into his eyes and feeling his hand in mine could stop time. I couldn’t imagine my life without him in it. He filled the hole in my heart and showed me how much one person could feel for another. He was the light at the end of the tunnel.
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